Be Focus and always Stay with Your Life Bible

The time now is 20:05 NSW 16 Oct 2011, after having a call with my mum, I know that I have to made decision whether go or stay, if someone wants to be meant into your life, effort should be put. Otherwise, feeling like lonely all the time, so why not let it go? thanks mum.

what going on for these two days? I went to the Byron Yoga Centre for 1st yoga class of Pruna yoga, the only 2 students here...ha...cool, the teacher can pay attention to me all the time woo...the main difference between Pruna and general yoga is using pops all the time...but still hard for me...I have never thought that using pops is that difficult and tired!! wall....block...bluster.. blanket...chair...WALL is the one that I felt most tough for me...let me make you feel it when I am back la...

after yoga in the morning....I needed to wait CHECK IN of the party backpacker....NOMADS (personally not suggested if you are not a party guy/gal!!) lucky that the lock of the room was functional...otherwise, those drunk guys may rush into your room...OMG!! lucky me that I had a safe night...

this morning, I checked out ASAP cos I really wanted to leave this backpacker ASAP, I got up early and just head to Atlantic again, after a breakfast, I did the 1st time of beach running this morning, pretty cool!! you will not sweat a lot because of the wind...but you will feel how much you really worked out....the quad...calf.....feeling so great...as a yoga teacher, on top of yoga, strength is also another aspect that we need to take care with!!!

sun bath....coffee break....and then ewwww....shopping time...only for Hurlery stuffs but really happy....ha...I am not really a yogi ....I have so many ''attachment''....need need and need....after shopping...I did go t the supermarket...I could buy healthy food finally...because I will stay in the same place for a period of time.....so I can buy food but not only the instant one....happy happy!!

not much really worth of sharing these 2 days, just:
be meant into it: it's truth, why not face the problem? scared of what? if you really meant to be into my life, why not put effort? or even I have stepped out 1st, but still only got the escaping answer, be honest and sharing are all about relationship. Anyway, living in the reality is important, grounded but also reaching the ceiling....thanks mum to talk to me today!
If you wanna to come to Byron Bay and you are not partiholic, pls try not to pay Nomads if possible. you will regret as what I did.
beach running is really a good work out, let try if you have chance.

P.S If you find that you are not meant to his or her life any more, let it go, it's really painful, but it will be better than if you just hold it,...no honesty, no sharing and only escaping are the answers you are only having. It really meant to my life from my heart, but I don't know what can be the next step, only one party to face the problems is definitely not working at all...Again, shifting my heart and energy into the great ocean and my yoga life/career are what I can only do now. Be focus ....... ever expect too much from others, be treasuring whatever you are having and be thanksful are always my life bible (only have few sentences...haha.....)


with Loves
Gigi
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Kayak in Lively Ocean

nothing I have really done yesterday, I went to a coffee shop near to Atlantic Guesthouse, it's pretty good and the skinny Mocha was smooth but not too sweet, it's mine. after a short coffee and breakfast break, I went to walk around for getting more familiar with the shops around, going to buy surfs stuff for my lovely friends in Hong Kong, more styles, colors bababa.....anyway, was burning money for them!! ha....cool I loved burning money for others!!

after a short lunch, I stepped on a anti-van "gotoseakayak", we had totally 14 heads there...kids, couples and singles like me...I did not know why I did not mind to travel and have fun by myself now...it's interesting...the Kayak tour was all about watching whales and dolphins..however, there should be heaps these days, we only watch dolphins (they were sleeping-not active at all but not as we thought they playing around)...for whales...they did not will to meet us at all....haha...you know what...we did not meet whales...heaps dolphins but a big shark (not diving one mates!!) it was what we saw in movie...fin out of the surface and swan around the kayaks....the guides said...put your feet back to kayak (cos we always dipping feet into water when we are waiting whales and dolphins)....some followers thought it was dolphin...the funny guide said ''no no, it's not dolphin, it's not dolphin.....it's not dolphin....dididididi...watch out your feet if they were still dipping in...) haha....really scared actually....very closed and the kayak I was on was light blue one...it's meant like the dummy of fish.....it's about 6fts long (2 meters) ...anyway, lucky that I was alive again...haha...

after the shark's experience, we had kayaks on shore....cos of the big waves on shore...we had to paddle hard otherwise we would be push to the side of cliffs....big waves but we did 2 perfect kayaks' surfs...fast and powerful....had lots of fun....ewwwwww....we were capped ...good capped....totally capped....ears...whatever....we had to jump on the kayak again and going straight to the shore...no choice..you cannot just stand cos the waves were approaching you one by one....if you only stand there....you would be rolled down to water again and again.....finally...we were on shore successfully...again...lucky that I was still alive...haha...

good capped right!? yeah...after we dismissed, I walked back to my place...you know what? there were whales in front of me ....what?? they don't come up when we were there but now...I could really see them!!! interesting~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~after I homed, hot shower 1st of cause....freezing....then had a good chat with my dorm mates who are from German...we had some wine (only 2 glasses because of yoga class tomorrow! hee...I always remember what I am doing!!) ..cheese....nuts....good chat with people from different places in the world...different value of life...but honestly who I met in backpacker / guesthouse were always with similar thinkings about values...anyway, good chat and good wine!

lengthen post aging...sorry about that....what I would like to share is:
shark: fear - it's so big that you cannot expect when it will approach you, but when it comes to you, stay yourself together with people (kayaks' platform), feeling like you are not alone, the fear will go itself...
capping: fail / low tide of your life - you have to stand up again, otherwise, you will be ticked down again and again....

hee...hope I have some more sharing for coming few days!!! take care all of you!! love you all!Hugzzzzz
xxxxxx

With grace

Today is the 1st day I start writing my blog, I am now in Byron Bay by myself, not with Kylie / Fi / Kelly....but feeling very good....

I walked to the east coast suggested by the lady at Atlantic, there is a very good coffee shop ''Byron Bay Coffee", haha...honestly, it's too far away from the ocean, I came here just because I am tourist who is assumed to have a footprint at where suggested by local friends around!! Anyway, it's a good walk and thanks for the time giving me to be claim and look into those small lives living in the green yard!

After the beautiful morning walk, I pick lying down on the beach instead of going to the yoga studio ...because....the sun was hot and I know that I still can practice even I were lying down (Savasana)!! I made a big step into the FREEZING and COLD water...dun forget that here is Australia, big waves approaching to ........all the time........scared at the beginning, you know what? I am so short that the waves were easily to swallow me totally! at the same contour, for those Aussies...they were easily to stand but me.....come on why I am that short?? Anyway, I started asking myself not be scared and just let myself in grace with the waves...so truth that I felt less scared because I were not against to the natural force!! haha....like wake boarding mates! no against...be with them...you will find things become easy and not a big deal!!! haha...so lucky that I were still alive...I will try again tommorrow if no raining...

I also had a sun bath there...and started re-writing 10 things (problems/bad behavior/egos/habits/excuses bababa) that I hidden them in my life...haha....difficult to write all down (cos you always tell yourself I DUN HAVE ANYTHING WRONG/BAD)....cool I did it finally...so bad I am...I am not beautiful at all from inside out..., I am working hard on breaking things through and will become more beautiful wooo! time till noon, those ''hippies'' and ''noisy'' teens start stepping on the beach....Gigi, it's time to go, the natural music was hidden by those ''disco-like music''. Then I walked back to Atlantic...on the way through...I stopped by a shop for ''massage'', I just wanna to have one...no reason...I were not tired at all actually...but finally, I did not have massage but a treatment called ''theta healing'', it's so powerful that I still cannot easily describe now, and during the treatment, I had heard my voice ''so sad'' unconsciously and it was heard by people around you (in the shop), you really voiced out in that way, its sound like people are suffering from pain / sickness...if you were aside, you must think there is GHOST attaching on my body....my goddess...that ''sadness'' was kept a period of time...when I waked up, I felt like growing up and happy...the energy worker said because of the loss of my dad, I do feel very sad from inside...I love my mum but we have different value of life, however, I work for her...actually but not for myself....I have loves from men, the current situation was not the way I want...all above are against the life I want to live with...that's why I am so sad inside...she is Russian and living in Aussie, she should not know my stories definitely...anyway, what I was known is, I am trying to be in the life I want...then it's meaning of life...I will become more beautiful and happy...so good! you know what..? my dad...was not living in the life he wanted...so his body got sick......if you do not really believe, just have a look back a bit...happy people always be healthy because of happiness...their bodies love them too...ha...may be you will think I am saying something ''shit''......I am here just sharing what happened on me....

woo....too lengthen story....what I wanna to say is:

with grace in your life....waves...my voices...my feeling....don't be against of yourself...you are beautiful!! love yourself more!!!

P.S haha...people will find the difference when you are living in the way you want...people will approach to you even the strangers walking around...they look at you and stop till you to their end...and only say, you are beautiful and nice to meet you..my name is bababa....ha...so funny experience here!!